After things have ended between us, everything caught up to me worst than before. I set my feelings aside and moved on from there, but I still tried to fight for us. It has been two months without any closure and reassurance, and this day has finally came – our agreement to have an ultimatum or deadline. Sometimes, everybody who comes in our life isn’t meant to stay. So this is the last piece of me taking an opposite direction away from you.
Questions were left unanswered and after finding out everything I needed to know, I rested my case. But we’re lucky, coz we’ve had the opportunity to still be friends, lovers and then friends again. However, this is the final touch. I can’t stay like this towards you knowing you’re seeing someone else.
You’ve given me beautiful memories, and I hope I’ve done the same. I miss you every day, and if you ever think of me, know I’m thinking of you too, hoping that you’re just as happy as I am. I will always love you. I will always remember your smile, the one that make me swoon. I will always remember your laughter, because I don’t think anyone has ever made me laugh so hard.
This 2014, I need to take get my own life together. I am quickly approaching graduation and I cannot carry or deal with this emotional baggage. I am not giving up, I just want to focus on what matters and remember what I deserve. To let go is not to regret the past but for us to grow and live for the future.
It’s another year to start again, there are so much better things to come and I believe this year is going to be a great one for our families, friends, careers and relationships.
As we part, I want you to know that I thank God I was able to meet someone like you. You were the one I can only hope to cherish for the rest of my days.
I’ll see you soon.
Dear Future Soulmate,
I’m clingy, but I’ll never admit it. I’ll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if you’ve replied to something I’ve drafted numerous times in my head. I’ll get anxious when you don’t answer me back for a long time, and I’ll think to myself maybe you’ve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said because the simple act of replying assures me that you’re still mine. At least, for the time being it will.
I’ll get jealous a lot, but please don’t misconstrue it as me tying you down. I won’t get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. I’ll get jealous because maybe, just maybe you’ll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. I’ll be weary that maybe you’ll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.
I’m insecure, and it’s of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, it’s not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. It’s me just being me. Before you, I’ll probably never imagine in a million years that you’d be mine. So by virtue of the fact that we’re together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I won’t be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. I’m just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.
I’ll possess many faults, and I’m not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, I’ll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All I’m asking is that you accept them with me.
I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and it’s quite a bit to take in… so let me make a change of pace.
I’ll always love you. When we’re finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, I’ll never need another definition. I’ve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. I’ll love you more than I love myself and I know that isn’t too great but that’s just how I am. I’m going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, I’ll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, I’ll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how you’re feeling, I’ll fall in love with the way you say my name, and I’ll most definitely fall in love with so much more. I’ll study everything about you, I’ll remember the slightest details about you and your life. I’ll know what you look like when you’re upset without you having to say a word, I’ll know how you like your coffee in the morning, I’ll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, I’ll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest I’ll learn along the way. I pray you’ll be able to do the same as well.If you’re still reading, and you haven’t run away… I’ll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. I’d be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that I’ll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.
So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes… I’d like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive.
Love, Your Future Soulmate
Gonna miss all our pig outs when @ansylyap flies to Sydney 👭💕🐷 (at Dulcinea)
Someone dropped by to surprise me and brought doughnuts! Thanks, @ramirevilla! Happy! 💕😋
With one of the best dancers in #GCICph, @ilovejhem! Love you, Miranda Kerr!! 😂💛